One of my teachers offered a spectrum of trauma on one end (complete lack of choice) and creativity (complete choice) on the other. I have been leaning into creative practices wherever I can, finding that it gives me a reprieve and, I hope, possibilities toward finding ideas toward change.
These last couple weeks have been incredibly difficult. Allowing myself to feel through & process the range of emotions, and accepting if I need to recede a little to regain a sense of calm & safety. I know I need to regain that equilibrium before I can make any helpful moves or decisions. It’s been lots of introvert time & resting, then little toe in the water tests of bravery. Reminding myself, “okay the world isn’t so scary yet.” Acknowledging little acts of kindness & community in my every day. Staying present, trying to get back into my body. Remind myself I am safe right now. Oh and crying a lot. That previous trauma piece has made this go around much more terrifying. I’m so glad that you called it out.
Head down, mouth shut. Waiting for the FO of FAFO to happen.
One of my teachers offered a spectrum of trauma on one end (complete lack of choice) and creativity (complete choice) on the other. I have been leaning into creative practices wherever I can, finding that it gives me a reprieve and, I hope, possibilities toward finding ideas toward change.
My therapist and I poked at themes along that spectrum today. May we all find places of empowerment and care.
These last couple weeks have been incredibly difficult. Allowing myself to feel through & process the range of emotions, and accepting if I need to recede a little to regain a sense of calm & safety. I know I need to regain that equilibrium before I can make any helpful moves or decisions. It’s been lots of introvert time & resting, then little toe in the water tests of bravery. Reminding myself, “okay the world isn’t so scary yet.” Acknowledging little acts of kindness & community in my every day. Staying present, trying to get back into my body. Remind myself I am safe right now. Oh and crying a lot. That previous trauma piece has made this go around much more terrifying. I’m so glad that you called it out.
It sounds like you are REALLY learning to trust yourself and how to be gentle with your process and needs. Sending love and solidarity!